Ok, my life is falling apart. Perfect timing.

Shit. My life has been falling apart these past few months. Yep, you heard me right. Firstly, my parents are getting a fucking divorce. I have no idea who I'm going with, my holidays are freaking shit--bored and broke. And my dad is being a fucking bastard. Yes. I'm fucked. There are only two things i have to hang on to in my damned life now, good friends and of course, you Nisha(if you're reading at all).

Okay, my parents have always been fighting for as long as i can remember. Lets just say that it is no secret that their love boat sailed and sunk a long long time ago. But i never really thought they would actually go for a damn divorce, sure the idea was thrown about quire a bit but now they've latched on to the idea. Fuck.

My stupid job is been on hold for a while now, i was supposed to have training for the the damn job yesterday but the shitty hotel, Shang Ri La mind you, had some miscommunication problem and failed to tell quite a number of us that training was postponed to next week. This on it's own sucks, i don't get to start work until like a weeks time - one more boring and broke week. And it didn't help that i find out that training was cancelled after i get to the damn hotel in town, all the way from freaking Pasir Ris. My dad refuses to give me money at all too. Fuck.

And yes, my dad is being the ultimate bastard. He is literally putting my brothers above me, what the fuck? Favouritism. My brother gets what ever the hell he wants and doesn't have to ask and merely has to mention it in conversation. I mean, he got my brother, fucking expensive clothes, an iPod, a laptop, a bloody good phone, and now a damned good guitar. All for no good reasons, and i get grounded and my pocket money suspended. My freedom is fucked up and all. My brother on the other hand gets what ever the hell he likes, despite being a complete wastrel, smoking and all. Fuck. My dad won't even pay for my boxing man, what the fucking hell? Asshole. Now I'm stuck at home with no freedom, money or entertainment-xbox is broken too. And my brother gets what ever he wants.

Seems to me that my life like falls apart when it's time for me to be happy and merry after my O'levels. I mean, I'll never again in my entire life be able to enjoy my life like i can now. I have no worries now, or at least I'm not supposed to but hell. I do have more worries.

It'll be exactly one month together babe, come Friday. And i pray to god it's just the beginning of an eternity together. I love you very much darling(if you're reading at all, cos i doubt i gave you the URL to my blog.)

I have many more problems and unfair things to complain about but I'm not gonna bore those of you reading my blog any further. haha.

"I love you and that's all i really know"

Nisha, I love you.

Ok, it's been a long time since i last blogged. I guess i kinda abandoned this blog for a while to not infringe my privacy. But heck.

Ok, time to update. O'levels ended a while back, thank god. I've had my Graduation Night dinner since then and well, i found the love of my life. I love you babe, if you're reading. Also managed to get a job at Shang Ri La hotel Singapore. I'm a waiter at banquets. got the job with Matthew and his sister. Hmm, the o'levels were relatively simple, compared to any exam i've ever sat for. Not too worried about the results, i can wait.

Grad Night was also a fun experience, really cool experience. haha, we were supposed to go to Joel's house for a party and to get so piss drunk and wasted that night. Unfortunately, The damn cab driver refused to take me in his cab, too many people. Asshole.

Hmm, lately, I've screwed up alot. I can't tell what i messed up here, too public but yeahs, i have. And to whomever it may concern; If you are reading at all. I love you very much, i mean every word i say from my heart.

Been trying to write a song lately for you but words somehow fail me when i get down to putting the pen to the paper. Chord progressions and Riffs are no problems, words are the damn problem.

Okays, i have no mood to write anymore, I'm going to write my song now. I'll put it up here as soon as i can, by Sunday i hope. Grad night pictures are up too, all on my facebook. Go check it out if you want.