if it swims, we have it!

Well, today was miserable for the most part of the day. The only good thing that happened today was the in promptu meeting for dinner with my best friend,AJ.

Basically, we went out without a plan and figured we were hungry and nothing said "i'll sate your hunger" quite like Carl's junior did. Yep, we went to Carl's junior, and we ordered like a HUGE meal, up sized. The more interesting part, apart from the meal, was the conversation e had on the way there. We hiked to the outlet at the old big splash and had a very good conversation. We spent a good amount of time talking about next year and how we'd miss everyone and the school and the times we spent together. After that, this Soviet looking dude just walked up to us b the beach and asked us for like 5 bucks for his dinner....wtf? we don't even know the dude. Anyway, at the food joint, the place was packed to the brim, literally. So, we bought our food and went to the last floor of big splash to devour our succulent meals. We barely spoke during the meal, our mouths were full the whole time. FRIES-BURGER-DRINK-REPEAT. haha, after that, on the way back, we sat across the street at a bus stop opposite the seafood place around the corner from Carl's junior and we saw this sign-if it swims, we have it-we laughed till we were on the brink of puking the contents of our now way beyond full stomach-sperms for dinner?LOL. And AJ came up with this song when we saw a really hot chick on the bus, she was so hot, watching her was like an equivalence of watching porn. "she got the boobs, the rack, i got the cock, we gotta fuck." in a really whiny kinda rap tone. damn funny. On the way back, my dad picked us up from east coast. In the car, they spent the whole time like insulting Emelia and me, calling me her bitch.....yaaadaahyaadahyaadah. Not changing the way i feel about her guys-.-

Anyway, about her........well, i really don't know what to think, or feel. all know is i love her. What she feels, i don't know, is she through with me? am i rejected? i don't know, i spoke to her friend and she told me to move on, and gotta admit, that really hurt. I don't want to move on, i love her. Maybe i will get hurt but i don't mind if it's her hurting me. To me, she is worth it. I made a promise to her, i will not give up until she tells me to move on in the face. After the cruel charade I've had with her, it still put a smile on my face, put a warm blanket around my heart when i received a message from her just now, guess i can' help it, i love her too god damned much.

Anyway, i really have no idea what to do now, guess I'll just have to wait. From earlier experiences i know these things work themselves out in time and time also heals most wounds. I'll always be there for her, she knows that, that's all that matters. Guess nice guys do tend to to stick around longer...haha. And to those of you who give me advice and options, thanks guys, i know you do it out of care and concern but, i guess I'll let the matter rest for now. It isn't that easy just stop loving someone, not anyone, that someone, my someone.

that's all for now, I'll blog more tmrw.

notsoHAPPYJUICE!

never thought not having you here now would hurt so much

hey hey hey!!!been a while since i last blogged man.well, anyways, alot going on lately. Girls, exams, personal developments......etc. On to report them all.

Firstly, kinda messed my head up by falling into what i would is presume is love, if it was 2 sided. Humph, i met her at the carnival by the canal st pats had in joint partnership with katong convent. Yep, u heard right people, shes from kc. And since then, I've quite literally been blinded by her and my emotions for her, gotta admit, i like the feeling of having someone to invest my feelings on, HER. But, as i was brooding earlier, i can't help but feel that this thing i believe we have is one sided. I mean, i don't mean to put her on the spot or anything, but i just would like to know if she's just leading me on, and it gets so hard to ask her these things because she claims she's shy and well, words sometimes are guilty for failing me whenever i think of her. She practically prefers to communicate with me through her friends. It just sucks and rocks at the same time, it's more twisted than my freaking guts.......love; annihilation.

Moving on to something more fun and less depressing, the more important papers of my prelims are over and i have been hanging put with the guys alot, like Friday last week, the guys practically got drunk, and we like played ice and water at a playground nearby Husain's house. After that, we went to Mandarin gardens-courtesy of Matthew-and played tennis. After that, AJ and i went back to school and waited for....her....then, Thursday this week, after school, the whole gang of us went to parkway. Challenger to be exact and played fifa pro street 3 on 360 and call of duty 4 on comp. then we went to popular and ran into well, first her, then another good friend of mine, Shariah. After that, went back to school with AJ, ran into Alexus and we played pool at the cove, i owned aj's ass, 5-2. YEAH! Friday-partied at school, played guitar then went to Mandarin gardens again-thanks matt-played street soccer, and went swimming after that. That night, went out with my dad to takashimaya, damn funny, 3 guys who absolutely hate shopping trying to find particular things in a mall the size of freaking china. And today, went to funan and bought this new PC. Might go out for a movie or something next week.....dunno yet, depends.

Hmm, oh yeah, i also managed to talk to another one of my friends about my screwed up relationships, that really helped me alot, i dunno if she reads my blog but, thanks Nisha, really helped to talk to someone about it, you helped more than you think you did. She gave me good advice on how i should just clear things out with....her....and well, i guess i will, as soon as she stops ignoring me.

Hmm, i thought about alot of things over the last couple of months that i can't quite put my finger on now. I guess I'll let you guys know more about it when i can, i have a computer now so i'm guessing i'll blog more often, like every week or something.

Next week is a holiday and frankly, time to pull my already high socks a wee bit higher, just till it loses it's elasticity. I need to take a break man, i'll mugg but i'll also go out more often, just to hang and have fun. Life's way too short to spend just mugging.

Well, till next time, or week, bye.

HAPPYJUICE
(though i'm kinda confused now, emelia, you'd know why)