Hey ho, decided to blog again today. Lately, nothing really interesting has been going on in my life i decided to blog anyway to throw my thoughts for the past week on my blog. Having gcp everyday until like 5 plus....get home and have to study again.....shit...
On the brighter side, i managed to get the book eclipse this week, i got it from one of them rajeevan's sister's friend. The book is a hell lot more interesting than new moon, particularly because i got to read more on Edward. However, i hate that Jacob has to get more and more hurt--seeing as to i can sympathise most with him...I also seem to be marvelled by the fact that Edward and Bella really are in love despite all odds against them.
Moving on, i pondered alot about stuff over this week....the bulk of it on love--for those of you who know me well enough, u know what i mean. I also began wondering why the heck my mom seems to want to keep me out of any relationship with any special person until she dies....this sucks. I've really grown to like this special someone over the course of time I've liked her, to a point that i don't even look at other girls desiringly....the best part, this person hasn't the slightest idea of my feelings for her. She's probably gonna read this blog and not know who the hell i am talking about....O well, even if she asked me who, I'd probably not tell her....Such a coward i am....I guess i might as well do what i was told--advice from a girl herself...wait....patience is a virtue....when I'm ready(this was a month back...i quarrelled with my mom when i told her that i like this girl and no matter what she did, i ain't gonna cave to her demands, i stood alone...ALL alone.
The good thing about this week is, i managed to talk about my inner feelings with someone who surprisingly didn't call me a hobo...gotta say, it felt good, to talk about my feelings proud and unafraid...also got some good advice from this person. I really liked that.
Oh wells, library's about to close soon, i gtg now...till next time...bb
HAPPYJUICE!
(this is the truth, this week made me happy--really)
Friday, July 11, 2008
Saturday, July 5, 2008
the more i see the less i know
So it's been a while--a damn long while--since i last blogged. Lots of shit happened in that time, for one, i broke my guitar, and of course got a new one. Went for NCDCC camp, got into alot of trouble, and made closer relations with a couple of friends.
I realised how a friend of mine completely hates herself for a no good reason, not that there really is any good reason for one to hate herself. I tried to explain that to her and then, it came to my attention that i should just take the time to look into her eyes and see, see her sorrow. Then i thought to myself, in this ever changing maglev train we call a world, in this mundane and vicious cycle of events in which we are trapped in; with the excuse of it being called our life, no one actually cares for anyone else. We never take the time to think about someone else, and want to put a smile on any ones face. We are too preoccupied with ourselves-correction-We choose to be preoccupied with our lives, well aware of our lives being quite stagnant and well, not anything fancy to be preoccupied with. Hence, from now on, i am gonna do what ever it takes to put a smile on the faces of everyone i care about. I'll take the first step to genuinely give a crap about others, to do something to make ppl happy, even if it doesn't last, as long as they smile when they're with me.
Got into the habit of reading, decided to begin the habit by reading the twilight series-by recommendations by a couple of friends. However, i am currently unable to read the entire series, the fourth book isn't out yet and the third book is on loan in every library I've been to, the school library doesn't have the book on their catalogue either. The book is actually pretty damn interesting, i read the first 2 books in under 4 days, and right now, i still am captivated by the story. There is one particular situation which i can relate to very well--the situation Jacob black is in, loving bella and hauntingly aware that bella only wants a friendship and even if she wanted more than that, that relationship would be not workable, not feasible....this girl i like,...well, i don't think she is inters ted in a relationship, well at least not with me.
Anyways
I got alot of studying to do over the next 4 months, after that.......my imagination takes over. FUN.......to the highest level available. No more held back fun, whole hearted fun, i can afford to break a couple of bones, perhaps lose my sanity to the zenith of fun I'll be captured by will in. However, until the fun strikes, I'll have to slave in the fields of education to end the rapture of the O's.
Oh wells, thats all for now.
WHERE IS THE LOVE PEOPLE?
I realised how a friend of mine completely hates herself for a no good reason, not that there really is any good reason for one to hate herself. I tried to explain that to her and then, it came to my attention that i should just take the time to look into her eyes and see, see her sorrow. Then i thought to myself, in this ever changing maglev train we call a world, in this mundane and vicious cycle of events in which we are trapped in; with the excuse of it being called our life, no one actually cares for anyone else. We never take the time to think about someone else, and want to put a smile on any ones face. We are too preoccupied with ourselves-correction-We choose to be preoccupied with our lives, well aware of our lives being quite stagnant and well, not anything fancy to be preoccupied with. Hence, from now on, i am gonna do what ever it takes to put a smile on the faces of everyone i care about. I'll take the first step to genuinely give a crap about others, to do something to make ppl happy, even if it doesn't last, as long as they smile when they're with me.
Got into the habit of reading, decided to begin the habit by reading the twilight series-by recommendations by a couple of friends. However, i am currently unable to read the entire series, the fourth book isn't out yet and the third book is on loan in every library I've been to, the school library doesn't have the book on their catalogue either. The book is actually pretty damn interesting, i read the first 2 books in under 4 days, and right now, i still am captivated by the story. There is one particular situation which i can relate to very well--the situation Jacob black is in, loving bella and hauntingly aware that bella only wants a friendship and even if she wanted more than that, that relationship would be not workable, not feasible....this girl i like,...well, i don't think she is inters ted in a relationship, well at least not with me.
Anyways
I got alot of studying to do over the next 4 months, after that.......my imagination takes over. FUN.......to the highest level available. No more held back fun, whole hearted fun, i can afford to break a couple of bones, perhaps lose my sanity to the zenith of fun I'll be captured by will in. However, until the fun strikes, I'll have to slave in the fields of education to end the rapture of the O's.
Oh wells, thats all for now.
WHERE IS THE LOVE PEOPLE?
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