if it swims, we have it!

Well, today was miserable for the most part of the day. The only good thing that happened today was the in promptu meeting for dinner with my best friend,AJ.

Basically, we went out without a plan and figured we were hungry and nothing said "i'll sate your hunger" quite like Carl's junior did. Yep, we went to Carl's junior, and we ordered like a HUGE meal, up sized. The more interesting part, apart from the meal, was the conversation e had on the way there. We hiked to the outlet at the old big splash and had a very good conversation. We spent a good amount of time talking about next year and how we'd miss everyone and the school and the times we spent together. After that, this Soviet looking dude just walked up to us b the beach and asked us for like 5 bucks for his dinner....wtf? we don't even know the dude. Anyway, at the food joint, the place was packed to the brim, literally. So, we bought our food and went to the last floor of big splash to devour our succulent meals. We barely spoke during the meal, our mouths were full the whole time. FRIES-BURGER-DRINK-REPEAT. haha, after that, on the way back, we sat across the street at a bus stop opposite the seafood place around the corner from Carl's junior and we saw this sign-if it swims, we have it-we laughed till we were on the brink of puking the contents of our now way beyond full stomach-sperms for dinner?LOL. And AJ came up with this song when we saw a really hot chick on the bus, she was so hot, watching her was like an equivalence of watching porn. "she got the boobs, the rack, i got the cock, we gotta fuck." in a really whiny kinda rap tone. damn funny. On the way back, my dad picked us up from east coast. In the car, they spent the whole time like insulting Emelia and me, calling me her bitch.....yaaadaahyaadahyaadah. Not changing the way i feel about her guys-.-

Anyway, about her........well, i really don't know what to think, or feel. all know is i love her. What she feels, i don't know, is she through with me? am i rejected? i don't know, i spoke to her friend and she told me to move on, and gotta admit, that really hurt. I don't want to move on, i love her. Maybe i will get hurt but i don't mind if it's her hurting me. To me, she is worth it. I made a promise to her, i will not give up until she tells me to move on in the face. After the cruel charade I've had with her, it still put a smile on my face, put a warm blanket around my heart when i received a message from her just now, guess i can' help it, i love her too god damned much.

Anyway, i really have no idea what to do now, guess I'll just have to wait. From earlier experiences i know these things work themselves out in time and time also heals most wounds. I'll always be there for her, she knows that, that's all that matters. Guess nice guys do tend to to stick around longer...haha. And to those of you who give me advice and options, thanks guys, i know you do it out of care and concern but, i guess I'll let the matter rest for now. It isn't that easy just stop loving someone, not anyone, that someone, my someone.

that's all for now, I'll blog more tmrw.

notsoHAPPYJUICE!